Favourite- Something regarded with special favour or liking
As a kid, I really found it hard to fill slam books. They were a craze back then. But, somehow I always found it hard to find my favourite hobbies, favourite actor and actress, favourite pastime, favourite singer and other things. And the one that troubled me the most was- About Me. Let alone be the part where you have to write what your friends thought about you. Well, you see, my schooling passed without friends who had an insight. And I really didn’t want to take a chance with them. Not under those circumstances.
So, as a result, my favourite things changed. My favourites actors, actresses, favourite moments, favourite hobby, changed with every new slam book. And I grew up without finding out my favourite things. Without any favourites. I have always denied the opportunity to admit that I am a big music fan or that I liked watching movies or that I liked sitting on the internet, and that I just would like to lie down and sometimes sing like a maniac when I am all alone. Well, identity crisis can do that! Besides, I always wondered, how can a person have a favourite throughout the years? How is that possible?
And today, after all these years of struggling through blinding roads and dark fantasies, it still continues to trouble me. I have been trying to find out my answers ever since. And lately, I have realised these things in an epiphany:
Epiphany- A moment of sudden understanding or revelation
Today: I am actually watching movies. Lots of them. I cried my heart out watching Finding Neverland, Enough, and Bridge to Terrabithia, laughed at Monsters’ Inc, Ice Age, and Up, did not move a muscle on Paranormal Activity and Grudge, and cried with a smile with I am Sam, My Sister’s Keeper, and The Lake House. I wanted to be in Terminator Salvation and The Taking of Pelham 123.
Before: I watched but never it was never an entry.
Today: I listen to music at work. While travelling. Whenever I am on the PC. Or when I am doing chores. Always.
Today: I feel guilty if I don’t read when I am travelling.
Before: Read comics and story books.
Today: I sing whenever I feel like. In the bus. In the balcony. In the bedroom. On the terrace. In my shower. While blogging. Miley Cyrus, Taylor Swift, MLTR, Shania Twain, Green Day, Enrique, Michael Jackson.
Today: I dance probably with all my heart. I can do a bit of belly dance- the kind that would force Shakira to nod her head in disappointment when I finish it, a bit of moonwalk- MJ would not have been happy.
Before: Danced. But never a favourite.
Today: I write to find my answers.
Before: I wrote as a chore.
Today: I take pride in cracking a Math problem. Preferably Sudoku.
Before: Never talked about Math for more than half a minute.
Today: I drooled over Hugh Jackman in X-Men Origins: Wolverine and Australia. Fell in love with John Travolta and Nicolas Cage in Face Off. Wanted to be like Diane Keaton when I am her age.
Before: It was some Bollywood actor whom I cannot stand to watch now.
Today: History allures me and so does Biology and Computer Science.
Before: My answer would have been English. Because that was the easiest.
Today: I want to capture every single moment in my camera.
Before: Never held a camera in my hand. And, never was in a picture.
Sometimes, I don’t want to have any favourites and sometimes, they keep on changing and most of the times, they just don’t make any sense, no matter how hard I try. I have realised that naming favourites really doesn’t matter as long as you enjoy everything that you are doing. I still don’t like slam books. And I still don’t have any favourites.
And I am glad. Because that way I don’t have to limit myself to a few lines when I can have a whole book.
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