If you trigger me, i will cry.
That is how i have come to become. As i sit here, surrounded by loons of a whole new level, i have come to realize what i have been lacking, what we have been lacking.
I want to get out because i don't know what is there in a picture. What is there in being in a picture! It is something i cannot understand. We are working for children, we are working so they can get a chance at a better future.
This project is something that i strongly believe in. This project is close to me by all means, i have been here for quite some time and this time has given me, exposed me to the truth that gets cloaked in civilization, in richness, and in the world.
So, what have we been doing. We have been busy with everything other than our children. I remember the time when i wanted to take pictures because the children were doing something, enjoying something... now, i don't find it, i don't find the passion for it. Everything becomes just a part of work- the fun, the children, and the project.
And, all the ease, all the love gets drenched in good ol' work.
I don't even know whether i am conveying the right thing. It is just that we haven't done anything life-changing for a child. Nothing.
And, it is sad. It is sad to know that there are people ready to plaster their faces in pictures when this project is for the children.
It does not always need to be about work. Not always professional.
Work can be something emotional. If i see a parent tearing up for her child, cannot i cry with her? If i hear a mother tell about her hardship, cannot i cry?
What's work got to do with it!! What's work got to do with humanity!!
I cannot understand what they are trying to preach me, because it is something away from me...
I am professional but my work is not meant to be.
It is an emotional work, it is something that will make me feel happy, sad, exalted, quiet, and emotional.
It is something that makes me know what being a human means.
And, for me, that is enough.